Let's just be honest here: no one visits this blog anymore, not even me. It's just sitting here, un-updated and pathetic-like because I don't enjoy blogging all that much. I mean, it's not like there is anything fascinating going on in Bitner Manor (and by 'Manor' I actually mean 'smallish apartment'). No big news to announce, and even if there was you can bet I'd be shouting it from the rooftops telling everyone by updating my status on Facebook.
Now that I've acknowledged the truth, embraced it, I feel freer than I have in quite a long time. It's actually quite liberating, the fact that no one reads anything I post here. I don't feel any pressure to be anything other than who I truly am: an opinionated mormon housewife with ADHD who--guess what?--doesn't enjoy socializing all that much (because I'm an introvert).
What I'm trying to say to all of the people who are currently not reading this right now: I'm kind of weird/sarcastic/ridiculous/prone to fits of sadness and sometimes anger, but that's cool.
What I mean is, I'm cool with all of that. I've grown to accept that I'm not some perfect person, nor am I the type that enjoys acting as though I am perfect. Even if I was that type of person I wouldn't be fooling anyone for very long. Seriously folks, it's not like I'm all that coordinated. Plus, my ADHD is a bear to deal with even when the medication is still pumping through my system, so I never really get things done on time and I've been known to say some really dumb stuff. Fact.
But, whatevs, none of that matters because no one is reading this--yay!
Anyway, my point is, since no one is watching I'm going to be dancing like a maniac. That's right, I'll be posting whatever I feel like posting from now on. One day I might post about my family and other days I might captivate my non-audience with the fascinating details of my daily workout regime. Yeah, I'm a real rebel, I know.
In the end, I hope to have a sort of journal that, if the powerless dystopia featured in NBC's Revolution doesn't actually happen, my kids or grandkids might stumble upon it and discover that I was really as strange as they remember me and they can show it to their future therapists for proof. :)
Now that I've acknowledged the truth, embraced it, I feel freer than I have in quite a long time. It's actually quite liberating, the fact that no one reads anything I post here. I don't feel any pressure to be anything other than who I truly am: an opinionated mormon housewife with ADHD who--guess what?--doesn't enjoy socializing all that much (because I'm an introvert).
What I'm trying to say to all of the people who are currently not reading this right now: I'm kind of weird/sarcastic/ridiculous/prone to fits of sadness and sometimes anger, but that's cool.
What I mean is, I'm cool with all of that. I've grown to accept that I'm not some perfect person, nor am I the type that enjoys acting as though I am perfect. Even if I was that type of person I wouldn't be fooling anyone for very long. Seriously folks, it's not like I'm all that coordinated. Plus, my ADHD is a bear to deal with even when the medication is still pumping through my system, so I never really get things done on time and I've been known to say some really dumb stuff. Fact.
But, whatevs, none of that matters because no one is reading this--yay!
Anyway, my point is, since no one is watching I'm going to be dancing like a maniac. That's right, I'll be posting whatever I feel like posting from now on. One day I might post about my family and other days I might captivate my non-audience with the fascinating details of my daily workout regime. Yeah, I'm a real rebel, I know.
In the end, I hope to have a sort of journal that, if the powerless dystopia featured in NBC's Revolution doesn't actually happen, my kids or grandkids might stumble upon it and discover that I was really as strange as they remember me and they can show it to their future therapists for proof. :)
1 comment:
Tia! So, I don't want to ruin your "nobody is reading so I can be free" thing, but I want to tell you that I am SO glad you posted and hope you keep posting! But don't let that change what you write! I know the pressure you speak of. But just be free! Like walking around your house in your underwear because you can! Love ya!
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